The sendoff

It means farewell to our seniors, and also means to remind ourselves that we will also be given a sendoff next year. However it made me sink into the idea of relationships in life. Even though I had real friends, and I love them, I always thought that whatever the world was saying about love and relationship was ridiculous. I sort of don't like to think otherwise even now.

Looked like that class of senior students were deeply connected and in love. From their words, I was able to infer that it happened, typically, after their class tour. Yes, I was emotional and their love moved me. Well, it automatically makes one think about their own relationships with classmates. And I was horrified by the thought that each moment that we spent on college is extremely precious, and the photographs "seemingly" held that truth. I never had this epiphany since my 10th standard which is approximately 10 years back. But still, there are some stones in this smooth friendship path, aren't there?

Ok, I might be a person who looks at these stones with a magnifying glass... But intrusions are intrusions, provided by intruders (I mean, what Christians call- satan). As I was highly sensitive to this, I have been analyzing what's wrong with people? which of course, including me. There are faults in everyone and another thing that found is the fault of the role played by biased group thinking, a.k.a, group-ism if you wish to call so. But group-ism isn't in a gang of friends alone, it is prone to occur between any two individual itself. And moreover, it is all about an outsider's view! I mean, people who are brave to penetrate this false-wall are rare. Everything is a matter of perception, and impressions. That's why we hear over and over: "late have I realized how incredible this person is". Memory plays a vital part in college days of friendship. Those who are fond of sweet memories, are inclined to forget bad memories. Everybody do this. That is the reason why everybody says that collage days are the best days of your life?

The warmth of love that I feel is inexplicable...everything about this college. I am for my entire life, grateful to God for my friends and the second chance that he gave me here. Since I am a pig-headed person, and when saying sorry isn't in my dictionary and when I look at my broken friendship in this college, well that too horrifies me! I know why. Human relationships are tinted with selfishness always. It's just I am a dangerous perfectionist, I demand everything to be perfect and quarrel over that.

This send off also reminded me of afterlife. What would it be like, to watch ourselves in photographs or in videos, in at a point that we are helpless to make any little changes in this world at all? It was a wakeup call.